Good afternoon, everyone!!!

So much has happened in the last twenty-four hours I just don't even know where to begin.  So I guess I will start off by telling you, I do believe someone kicked this old lady's ass while she slept.  That's what I get for saying I would take on a night job, huh?!?  It was almost 4 in the morning before I got home and finally wound down to lay this weary body down.  Ah, the fast pace of this working world we live in.

Okay, so I will quit stalling on my best news from yesterday before  I get into the subject of this blog title.  The Cheyenne Bride became contracted this morning, :)  Last evening before I ventured out into the world of working life, I opened my email to find an acceptance letter complete with contract, :)  Yes, this is one happy writer today, :)  Unfortunately, I'm too tired to climb out on the roof and yell it from the rooftops, :)

So now not only will my parnormal be coming out but so will my historical!!!  Yes, 2012 is a year for dreams to come true!!! 

It is also a realization year for me that came out of the blue last evening when I left group.  We were asked the question, "What about yourself have you noticed in the course of your healing?"  This question stayed with me on the drive home and I was almost there where when I realized something about me that had changed tremendously.

In the past I always felt as if I needed validation from others, especially when I accomplished something, such as selling my first manuscript.  Sure it's great to share in the joy, and this may sound very strange, but I found even had I not sold these manuscripts, I didn't need the validation from others to know I had achieved something.  That validation came when I wrote the last word on the last page.

I'm sure this will only make sense to those of you who have spent your lifetimes feeding your own soul by using this method of recognition that you exist in this world.  Seeking others approval for the things we do.  It's an odd feeling that I am finally that comfortable in my own skin. 

We all have those certain people in life we seek this validation from.  We could do so many wonderful things that others were proud to say they know you for, but if that one person shows little to no interest, or points out the million other things in life they deem you a failure for, well, it zaps all life out of the accomplishment.

I don't know if it's because I'm another year older, or if I have finally healed inwardly to that point, but I no longer seek this from anyone.  Instead I have found a healthy replacement of being happy with my accomplishments and enjoying the friendships where validation is not a necessity, but just friends being friends, sharing in my ups andn downs. 

I've learned to share in the ups and downs on a productive level for not only myself but my inner circle of friends and family.  Their friendship and love is all that is necessary for me to feel cared for, loved, and validated in this lifetime. 

Strange isn't it what a birthday can bring to mind? 

Everyone have a lovely day!!!

Blessings to all!!!







 


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