I'm starting to feel more connected now that my new computer is all set up and ready for business. I hate feeling so disconnected from myself, but I will say I did not have one meltdown in the entire week I went without everything set up :)
I've had tons of thinking time this past week. Something that can be dangerous at times LOL.
Mostly I thought about how much I would love to get back to writing :) I even almost broke down and picked up a notebook and pencil which was an option for sure :) But instead, I let my brain relax a bit, gave in to the urge to get a few things done, and focused on the Yule season. Yes, it is five days until Christmas and I still have a few presents left to get and yes, I still need to wrap the presents I picked up over the weekend. But they will get done and I'll be thrilled to have them under the tree awaiting for Christmas morning when the grandkids come over and have that wrapping paper all over my living room.
I've asked the Lord and Lady recently to give me courage, patience, and understanding in some situations in life. Some of the situations I really want to let my not so nice self take care of, but I also know, through my faith, that this does not solve anything, and it makes things worse. I've had my prayers answered in the avenue, and realize what I already knew, sometimes people just need you to back away. I also learned something else I already knew, things are not always about you. I know that there is a core reason even to behavior and sometimes it is not our business so we need to just stay out of it.
I hate to see people struggling whether outwardly or internally in this life, so the hardest thing for me to do is to stay out of it. But once again, the Lord and Lady are reminding me, mind your own business.
Yesterday, I awoke to my water heater pilot light out. A few days ago our cable box had gone insane and needed replaced. My new fridge quit making ice and I figured out the line was frozen as well as the line was under the back half of the fridge causing it to kink a bit.
What was the lesson in all this you might ask? Well, it's simple. Mind my own business. See, I am a firm believer in if we are too focused on life outside ourselves, things will happen to draw our attention back to where it needs to be, even in the simplest of things, such as a pilot light, a cable box, or a fridge water line. I need to worry about myself and not worry about what someone else may be saying about me. Focus my energy in a productive manner versus a manner in which makes me into a person I do not like.
We often ask the Lord and Lady why, but when they answer, we are too busy looking outside ourselves for the answers instead of looking within. Sometimes their answers are found in the simple aspects of life with the lessons camaflouged in just little annoyances. But when we look deeper we find the answer, we find understanding, and we can embrace the lesson.
I know to keep the schedule I set for myself, some days unrealistic goals, I must stay focused on what I need to do. If I get deterred from this the Lord and Lady do it for me, sometimes with health issues, other times with things breaking down around the house. It depends on how deep the lesson is I need to learn. This time I'm thankful it was a quick lesson and not something much deeper LOL.
Today, I keep my sites on what I still need to get done for the holiday season and plan for the up and coming after the holidays are over. I've been reminded over the course of the last week that a healthy lifestyle is something that requires my attention. My careers on both accounts require my undivided attention if I am going to do what I need to do to be my best.
Having the grandchildren over for our annual Christmas time sleepover, reminds me to let loose and play from time to time. It also reminds me to be in the moment when making memories. This time of year is about making memories that will last a lifetime, mine and theirs.
The death in the family reminds me that we are all mortal and one day we won't be here. Leaving behind family members who will miss us for the rest of their days. So I must embrace those moments in life now and not wait for a fictious tomorrow. For it may never come.
So this holiday season, regardless of what you celebrate, please live in that moment. Embrace it as if it may be your last, and be thankful if it is not. For the greatest gift we can give our loved ones is ourselves. Things in life come and go are often forgotten about. However, memories are something that will last forever in our hearts and souls. Passing from one lifetime to another with the most amazing power.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!