Good evening, everyone!!!
It's been awhile and hopefully now that I'll have a lot more time and a lot less weighing me down each week I will be able to get on here more often.
I'm excited for the up and coming new life I've given myself the freedom to take a chance on. Thanks to my sister's firm words and understanding patience as I've driven her nuts with the particulars of getting this sorted out and the courage to move on and move forward. I don't know what I would do without her.
Sometimes it just takes realizing how much of yourself you are losing in a certain place in your life, to push you forward. For me it was losing myself and recognizing I was too consumed in something that really didn't matter when it was all said and done. We're all replaceable in this life in the areas of life that aren't truly important. We're not replaceable in areas of life that mean the most, like family, friends, and our own inner peace.
For quite awhile now I've been losing my inner peace within an area of my life that I was replaceable. I allowed myself to be consumed by the insanity. I say I allowed it because ultimately I have the power to make the changes. The more I pushed to hold onto that aspect, the worse I lost myself. The worse I did not like who I was becoming.
I allowed others too much power over my time. Not just the time I gave to them each week, but my own personal time as well. I trusted in people whom I should have never given that kind of trust. Others seen it, told me, and I refused to believe it. But it only takes one thing for the flood gates to open and the picture to become crystal clear.
Never allow things in life to drain you dry emotionally, physically, or mentally. This is where I was in life. I physically felt the weight of it all lift from me when I stepped away. I've kicked myself for not opening my eyes sooner, even though I was told over and over again.
What kept me so long??? Believing it was me. That I would be giving up on myself. There were lessons to be learned, for sure. Lessons I hope this time around I have learned well. Well enough not to walk that path ever again.
I didn't realize I was giving up on myself by not taking control of this situation a lot sooner. But I was. Anything in this life that tries to destroy who you are and who you are trying to be, is not good for you. Plain and simple. I see that now, ever so clearly. I saved myself from loosing myself and that is an accomplishment all by itself.
Now, I can get back to being me. I can go do what I have to do. Give myself the me time I've been missing. And push forward with the life I've always wanted and quit letting outside elements interfere.
Everyone have a lovely night!!!
Blessings to all!!!
It's been awhile and hopefully now that I'll have a lot more time and a lot less weighing me down each week I will be able to get on here more often.
I'm excited for the up and coming new life I've given myself the freedom to take a chance on. Thanks to my sister's firm words and understanding patience as I've driven her nuts with the particulars of getting this sorted out and the courage to move on and move forward. I don't know what I would do without her.
Sometimes it just takes realizing how much of yourself you are losing in a certain place in your life, to push you forward. For me it was losing myself and recognizing I was too consumed in something that really didn't matter when it was all said and done. We're all replaceable in this life in the areas of life that aren't truly important. We're not replaceable in areas of life that mean the most, like family, friends, and our own inner peace.
For quite awhile now I've been losing my inner peace within an area of my life that I was replaceable. I allowed myself to be consumed by the insanity. I say I allowed it because ultimately I have the power to make the changes. The more I pushed to hold onto that aspect, the worse I lost myself. The worse I did not like who I was becoming.
I allowed others too much power over my time. Not just the time I gave to them each week, but my own personal time as well. I trusted in people whom I should have never given that kind of trust. Others seen it, told me, and I refused to believe it. But it only takes one thing for the flood gates to open and the picture to become crystal clear.
Never allow things in life to drain you dry emotionally, physically, or mentally. This is where I was in life. I physically felt the weight of it all lift from me when I stepped away. I've kicked myself for not opening my eyes sooner, even though I was told over and over again.
What kept me so long??? Believing it was me. That I would be giving up on myself. There were lessons to be learned, for sure. Lessons I hope this time around I have learned well. Well enough not to walk that path ever again.
I didn't realize I was giving up on myself by not taking control of this situation a lot sooner. But I was. Anything in this life that tries to destroy who you are and who you are trying to be, is not good for you. Plain and simple. I see that now, ever so clearly. I saved myself from loosing myself and that is an accomplishment all by itself.
Now, I can get back to being me. I can go do what I have to do. Give myself the me time I've been missing. And push forward with the life I've always wanted and quit letting outside elements interfere.
Everyone have a lovely night!!!
Blessings to all!!!