Good morning, everyone!!!
I know I haven't been blogging like I used to and I guess I really don't owe anyone an explanation, but...
I haven't been myself this last month or so. Why? Who knows? Maybe writing this blog will give me some insight. At least I hope it will give me some insight :)
I've been feeling strangely overwhelmed and really I have not been able to pinpoint why. I try to stay focused on the positives of life. Which really isn't an issue doing considering for the longest time I've chosen to count my blessings not my trails.
I love my jobs. I adore this time of year. I totally enjoy being outdoors as much as possible. The sun shining, the gentle breeze blowing. The sounds of nature all around.
I can feel a big change coming. But for the life of me I have no idea what that change is. Sure the youngest son is moving into his own place. I'm thrilled for him. I truly am on that aspect. We all need to spread our wings and fly out into the world. So I really don't think that is the issue.
I know this year has been harder than all the years before where Ali is concerned. I'm not really sure why, because she's been gone now for four years. But this year has been more difficult than the years before not having her. I guess it is because she would be a full blown toddler now.
I've made peace with the fact I am a grandmother to an angel. But there is just something about this year that is trying on that level and I wish I could pinpoint what it is. Maybe that is the why of this strange mood I'm in??? I listen the other grandchildren talk about her, miss her, telling me how they wish she was here to enjoy our times together. There is not a time when the grandkids come to my house that one of them doesn't bring up the fact that they wish Ali was here to have fun with them.
Then of course my parents have sold my childhood home. However, they've sold it to my niece, so that really isn't an issue either. But maybe stirring up childhood memories is another aspect??? Cleaning out more than 40 years of life is definitely emotional :) I can imagine even more so for my parents.
Then there is the fact that this year I've officially been a grandmother for 11 years. I'm going to say this is one of the best perks life has given me :) Watching these young ones grow into little people. Seeing the changes as they unfold in each of them. Seeing them grow into who they are going to be. Watching as life transforms them.
Something I learned in raising my youngest child is time goes so fast. So treasure each and every moment of the time children are young. Because before you know it they will be grown, having a life of their own, and this time will only be a memory.
I guess you could say I am happy with my life. I love my jobs. I love my family. I love my solitude. There are just times in life when I guess you just feel blah. I'm having one of those moments I guess. Where things seem overwhelming and I just have no get up and go. But, as always, this too shall pass and I will be back to my old self once again.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!
I know I haven't been blogging like I used to and I guess I really don't owe anyone an explanation, but...
I haven't been myself this last month or so. Why? Who knows? Maybe writing this blog will give me some insight. At least I hope it will give me some insight :)
I've been feeling strangely overwhelmed and really I have not been able to pinpoint why. I try to stay focused on the positives of life. Which really isn't an issue doing considering for the longest time I've chosen to count my blessings not my trails.
I love my jobs. I adore this time of year. I totally enjoy being outdoors as much as possible. The sun shining, the gentle breeze blowing. The sounds of nature all around.
I can feel a big change coming. But for the life of me I have no idea what that change is. Sure the youngest son is moving into his own place. I'm thrilled for him. I truly am on that aspect. We all need to spread our wings and fly out into the world. So I really don't think that is the issue.
I know this year has been harder than all the years before where Ali is concerned. I'm not really sure why, because she's been gone now for four years. But this year has been more difficult than the years before not having her. I guess it is because she would be a full blown toddler now.
I've made peace with the fact I am a grandmother to an angel. But there is just something about this year that is trying on that level and I wish I could pinpoint what it is. Maybe that is the why of this strange mood I'm in??? I listen the other grandchildren talk about her, miss her, telling me how they wish she was here to enjoy our times together. There is not a time when the grandkids come to my house that one of them doesn't bring up the fact that they wish Ali was here to have fun with them.
Then of course my parents have sold my childhood home. However, they've sold it to my niece, so that really isn't an issue either. But maybe stirring up childhood memories is another aspect??? Cleaning out more than 40 years of life is definitely emotional :) I can imagine even more so for my parents.
Then there is the fact that this year I've officially been a grandmother for 11 years. I'm going to say this is one of the best perks life has given me :) Watching these young ones grow into little people. Seeing the changes as they unfold in each of them. Seeing them grow into who they are going to be. Watching as life transforms them.
Something I learned in raising my youngest child is time goes so fast. So treasure each and every moment of the time children are young. Because before you know it they will be grown, having a life of their own, and this time will only be a memory.
I guess you could say I am happy with my life. I love my jobs. I love my family. I love my solitude. There are just times in life when I guess you just feel blah. I'm having one of those moments I guess. Where things seem overwhelming and I just have no get up and go. But, as always, this too shall pass and I will be back to my old self once again.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!