Good evening, everyone!!!
It has been a rough few months to say the least, with the 'shut down' the changes made in this life we know, and just trying to stay sane through it all.
As you know my day job is considered esstential so therefore I have been out in the public daily throughout this ordeal. Not as close to everything as some, such as my sister who is a nurse practitioner, which I pray for her and my other sister who is highly immune compromised, each day, along with many others.
My mind has not been so connected to much of anything other than worry for quite awhile, but as of a few weeks ago I changed that. I had to give my mind a rest from it all and find ways to let go of the stress of being an essential employee. That's not easy when you have sick people coming in each day, ensuring they cough on you, or sneeze on you, and just generally acting as if they don't care about the well being of their fellow man.
Sanitizing has become so routine now that it feels as if it has always been a part of the daily routine. We tease one another that our blood stream is 80% sanitizer these days. Which it must be working, knock on wood, because we've all managed to stay fairly healthy throughout all of this.
I needed something to get my mind right again, so my last four days off I spent three of them deep cleaning. Thankfully, the three older grandchildren came to help, because that upstairs hasn't been touched in two years except to add more crap to it. They worked their butts off, and they also kept me on track by encouraging me to keep going. Which I truly needed.
This week I got my smudging kit in and started smudging and meditation once again. This I haven't done in quite a few years and let's just say it has really been helpful in getting me back on track once again. All day when I felt myself starting to get a bit overwhelmed at work all I had to do was inhale and I could still smell the white sage and it calmed me immediately.
I believe I'm about ready to get the writing back on track again. Get back to work on getting Passionate Pursuit out and then on to the next, Jessie's Revenge :) I have just been so disconnected that writing (which normally grounds me) was not in the cards. I know me and I know when my emotions are running amok from trying to control what I cannot control, well, writing gets jumbled and then I have to go back and start over. That's not my goal here, my goal is to focus fully on the manuscript and get the best possible story out there.
What I do know is I cannot control what is happening around me. What I do know is, I can control how I react to it. A great deal of what is going on angers me, and it is this part of myself I fear the most. I work with a great bunch of people and I would hate to loose even one of them due to what we deal with each day. However, this is out of my control. What I can do, is do my very best to make our work enviroment as good as possible for those I care about. We now have the authority to ensure people maintain the 6 ft rule when inside our store, and I ensure that everytime a customer decides they are above the rules and infriges upon another customers space.
Asking a person who wants to control their enviroment to release that control to a greater power, is difficult sometimes. But, it has been necessary for my mental health to say the very least. So, I stay busy, both at work and at home. This allows me to have some control over my surroundings, which I desperately need right now.
So, as the title of this blog says, I'm getting back on track. I'm planning another big sweep of the last two rooms upstairs for my next days off. I've gotten most of my back porch ready for the up and coming warmer weather and have used it for meditation the last few days. Just waiting on the next sunny warm day to finish that up :)
I will continue smudging the day's negativity from my body and soul and bring a peace back to my being. The one thing I refuse to allow this period in life to take from me is my inner peace. I will fight hard to keep it, I will push through hell to keep my soul in tact. Because I will never allow the negativity that has swarmed this world to corrupt who I am or where I want to go in this life.
Everyone have a lovely night!!!
Blessings to all!!!
It has been a rough few months to say the least, with the 'shut down' the changes made in this life we know, and just trying to stay sane through it all.
As you know my day job is considered esstential so therefore I have been out in the public daily throughout this ordeal. Not as close to everything as some, such as my sister who is a nurse practitioner, which I pray for her and my other sister who is highly immune compromised, each day, along with many others.
My mind has not been so connected to much of anything other than worry for quite awhile, but as of a few weeks ago I changed that. I had to give my mind a rest from it all and find ways to let go of the stress of being an essential employee. That's not easy when you have sick people coming in each day, ensuring they cough on you, or sneeze on you, and just generally acting as if they don't care about the well being of their fellow man.
Sanitizing has become so routine now that it feels as if it has always been a part of the daily routine. We tease one another that our blood stream is 80% sanitizer these days. Which it must be working, knock on wood, because we've all managed to stay fairly healthy throughout all of this.
I needed something to get my mind right again, so my last four days off I spent three of them deep cleaning. Thankfully, the three older grandchildren came to help, because that upstairs hasn't been touched in two years except to add more crap to it. They worked their butts off, and they also kept me on track by encouraging me to keep going. Which I truly needed.
This week I got my smudging kit in and started smudging and meditation once again. This I haven't done in quite a few years and let's just say it has really been helpful in getting me back on track once again. All day when I felt myself starting to get a bit overwhelmed at work all I had to do was inhale and I could still smell the white sage and it calmed me immediately.
I believe I'm about ready to get the writing back on track again. Get back to work on getting Passionate Pursuit out and then on to the next, Jessie's Revenge :) I have just been so disconnected that writing (which normally grounds me) was not in the cards. I know me and I know when my emotions are running amok from trying to control what I cannot control, well, writing gets jumbled and then I have to go back and start over. That's not my goal here, my goal is to focus fully on the manuscript and get the best possible story out there.
What I do know is I cannot control what is happening around me. What I do know is, I can control how I react to it. A great deal of what is going on angers me, and it is this part of myself I fear the most. I work with a great bunch of people and I would hate to loose even one of them due to what we deal with each day. However, this is out of my control. What I can do, is do my very best to make our work enviroment as good as possible for those I care about. We now have the authority to ensure people maintain the 6 ft rule when inside our store, and I ensure that everytime a customer decides they are above the rules and infriges upon another customers space.
Asking a person who wants to control their enviroment to release that control to a greater power, is difficult sometimes. But, it has been necessary for my mental health to say the very least. So, I stay busy, both at work and at home. This allows me to have some control over my surroundings, which I desperately need right now.
So, as the title of this blog says, I'm getting back on track. I'm planning another big sweep of the last two rooms upstairs for my next days off. I've gotten most of my back porch ready for the up and coming warmer weather and have used it for meditation the last few days. Just waiting on the next sunny warm day to finish that up :)
I will continue smudging the day's negativity from my body and soul and bring a peace back to my being. The one thing I refuse to allow this period in life to take from me is my inner peace. I will fight hard to keep it, I will push through hell to keep my soul in tact. Because I will never allow the negativity that has swarmed this world to corrupt who I am or where I want to go in this life.
Everyone have a lovely night!!!
Blessings to all!!!