Good evening, everyone!!!
I know it's been awhile so let me catch you up on what's been happening in my world.
At the end of July my parents, my uncle, my sister, brother-in-law, and I headed out to Georgia to my grandparents home down there. My parents and uncle own this house now as they've both been gone for several years now. My sister and I have been canning for quite awhile now, and our grandparents used to have the most amazing garden in the entire world when we were growing up. Every time we go in the garden or start to can our latest canning adventure we normally start talking about our grandparents and how they must be looking down from heaven laughing at the two of us playing around in our little garden.
So at the end of July we went on a journey to the past. Our parents had given us permission to come down and get their old gardening and canning items. You bet we jumped at the chance. Going to Georgia is like going home for us girls. The smell of that red clay. The feel of our grandparents surrounding that land. It is like heaven here on earth. Just being there you can still feel their love even after all these years. If you close your eyes, you can still see grandma in the kitchen cooking up a storm. Man, could that woman could cook. You can still feel granddaddy's big hugs and your feet come off the ground no matter how big you had gotten.
Over the course of the last month it would be nice to grab a bit of advise from their wisdom as we face a sad time in our lives currently. Some bit of advise I could pass along to my own children when they need it the most. One thing I know for certain from just being their granddaughter is, "Love no matter what." Even when your hurting, even when your sad, always remember the love. This is something I have told myself a million times over in the course of the last month. Sorta my mantra if you will. I find peace in those words. Which is the one thing at this stage of my life I really need, peace.
I won't go into the details, but I will say at first this was a blow to my gut. I remember that first day, I was alone at the farm (my sister's place). We had been canning for weeks already, and my heart hurt so horribly I wasn't sure I would make it through that day.
It was my day off. Hubby and brother-in-law had gone off to town. My sister was at work. I was alone with all these feelings and all this pain in my soul. I decided I needed to go for a ride on the golf cart in the woods. Just me and nature. I had to get myself together. So, that's what I did. I rode awhile, cried a bit, prayed a whole lot. I have always been a firm believer in receiving signs from above. As I rode along I heard a noise. Something was following behind me a bit. Then I realized what it was. A momma deer. Her baby was just over a bit, having lunch under a few trees. I sat there, momma deer stayed behind me out of sight, but I knew she was watching me watch her baby. I sat there just watching this young deer have it's lunch. When it was threw it bound up the hillside, stopped and just looked down on me. It was the most beautiful sight I'd ever seen. I cried some more before reassuring myself this was the sign I was praying for. Peace overwhelmed me.
Granted I knew and know that with these sorts of things drama likes to rear it's ugly head. I can't do it. I can't do the drama. So, I remember those words, "Love no matter what."
Love doesn't mean you have to like things, it means that you accept what is happening at that moment and you try to deal with the emotions flowing through you, and pray a lot that things turn out how they are meant to be, not how you wish them to be, and you will be okay with that.
You also have to remind yourself what is happening may not be happening to you, but around you. And you have to remind yourself where your place is, on the outside looking in, not in the midst, but on the sidelines.
So, in the midst of this ordeal I've been doing what I do. I spend a good deal of time with my sister, because we had the garden from heaven for sure this year. Some of our plants were taller than the two of us. We still have a mound of tomatoes that are not going to can themselves, and a ton of dehydrating left to be done. We've been at this for two months now, with me living in my camper more than at my house for that time frame. Thankfully, I find peace and tranquility on that property of hers and I am so blessed she and her family don't mind having me around so much LOL.
A busy life keeps the mind from being idle. I'm so thankful to have her and this gardening/canning thing going on right now. It keeps me focused on where and what I need to be doing and helps me to put into perspective the feelings I have. It gives me the focus I need right now. I am so blessed for sure.
Life happens and we move forward. What awaits us only time will tell. One thing I know for certain, is I plan to keep a forward motion going. I will hold to my mantra, "Love no matter what," deep within me. I will mind my business and be who I am transforming into, no matter what is thrown at me. Because I started this evolving a long time ago, and I will keep it moving forward no matter what.
Everyone have a good night!!!
Blessings to all!!!
I know it's been awhile so let me catch you up on what's been happening in my world.
At the end of July my parents, my uncle, my sister, brother-in-law, and I headed out to Georgia to my grandparents home down there. My parents and uncle own this house now as they've both been gone for several years now. My sister and I have been canning for quite awhile now, and our grandparents used to have the most amazing garden in the entire world when we were growing up. Every time we go in the garden or start to can our latest canning adventure we normally start talking about our grandparents and how they must be looking down from heaven laughing at the two of us playing around in our little garden.
So at the end of July we went on a journey to the past. Our parents had given us permission to come down and get their old gardening and canning items. You bet we jumped at the chance. Going to Georgia is like going home for us girls. The smell of that red clay. The feel of our grandparents surrounding that land. It is like heaven here on earth. Just being there you can still feel their love even after all these years. If you close your eyes, you can still see grandma in the kitchen cooking up a storm. Man, could that woman could cook. You can still feel granddaddy's big hugs and your feet come off the ground no matter how big you had gotten.
Over the course of the last month it would be nice to grab a bit of advise from their wisdom as we face a sad time in our lives currently. Some bit of advise I could pass along to my own children when they need it the most. One thing I know for certain from just being their granddaughter is, "Love no matter what." Even when your hurting, even when your sad, always remember the love. This is something I have told myself a million times over in the course of the last month. Sorta my mantra if you will. I find peace in those words. Which is the one thing at this stage of my life I really need, peace.
I won't go into the details, but I will say at first this was a blow to my gut. I remember that first day, I was alone at the farm (my sister's place). We had been canning for weeks already, and my heart hurt so horribly I wasn't sure I would make it through that day.
It was my day off. Hubby and brother-in-law had gone off to town. My sister was at work. I was alone with all these feelings and all this pain in my soul. I decided I needed to go for a ride on the golf cart in the woods. Just me and nature. I had to get myself together. So, that's what I did. I rode awhile, cried a bit, prayed a whole lot. I have always been a firm believer in receiving signs from above. As I rode along I heard a noise. Something was following behind me a bit. Then I realized what it was. A momma deer. Her baby was just over a bit, having lunch under a few trees. I sat there, momma deer stayed behind me out of sight, but I knew she was watching me watch her baby. I sat there just watching this young deer have it's lunch. When it was threw it bound up the hillside, stopped and just looked down on me. It was the most beautiful sight I'd ever seen. I cried some more before reassuring myself this was the sign I was praying for. Peace overwhelmed me.
Granted I knew and know that with these sorts of things drama likes to rear it's ugly head. I can't do it. I can't do the drama. So, I remember those words, "Love no matter what."
Love doesn't mean you have to like things, it means that you accept what is happening at that moment and you try to deal with the emotions flowing through you, and pray a lot that things turn out how they are meant to be, not how you wish them to be, and you will be okay with that.
You also have to remind yourself what is happening may not be happening to you, but around you. And you have to remind yourself where your place is, on the outside looking in, not in the midst, but on the sidelines.
So, in the midst of this ordeal I've been doing what I do. I spend a good deal of time with my sister, because we had the garden from heaven for sure this year. Some of our plants were taller than the two of us. We still have a mound of tomatoes that are not going to can themselves, and a ton of dehydrating left to be done. We've been at this for two months now, with me living in my camper more than at my house for that time frame. Thankfully, I find peace and tranquility on that property of hers and I am so blessed she and her family don't mind having me around so much LOL.
A busy life keeps the mind from being idle. I'm so thankful to have her and this gardening/canning thing going on right now. It keeps me focused on where and what I need to be doing and helps me to put into perspective the feelings I have. It gives me the focus I need right now. I am so blessed for sure.
Life happens and we move forward. What awaits us only time will tell. One thing I know for certain, is I plan to keep a forward motion going. I will hold to my mantra, "Love no matter what," deep within me. I will mind my business and be who I am transforming into, no matter what is thrown at me. Because I started this evolving a long time ago, and I will keep it moving forward no matter what.
Everyone have a good night!!!
Blessings to all!!!