Good afternoon, everyone!!!
Today I am blogging from one of my favorite places, my back porch :) I love springtime out here surrounded by the outdoors and all the spring scents, flowers, freshly cut lawns, and yes, campfires :)
This weekend I had my first really tough night of work since I started there seven months ago. We came into a mess, mass confusion, and normally, we just push through, get done what needs done, and that's the end of things. Well, it didn't work the normal way and one thing I know about myself is when things don't work right my anxiety levels push upward.
It sometimes gets so bad it puts me in a horrible mood. However, strangely that did not happen the other night. Mind you, even my coworkers felt this anxiety. In fact, toward the end of the night we joked about it. See, we took turns with the anxious part of the night. We problem solved together, we helped each other push through when one of us felt anxious, and we kicked ass.
Yesterday, I reflected on all of this and realized life has once again taught me something important.
It's okay to feel overwhelmed and anxious. It's okay to not know how you are going to fix things at first. What's not okay is allowing yourself to unpack and live there. Had all of us decided the night was completely lost and given up we would have never been able to do all we did. Instead, we supported one another (our personalities are very similar, we both like to
find the positive even in bad situations), we worked as a team, and we made the night a success.
I think that was the very first time I started out on high anxiety and was able to end a day with a sense of good accomplishment.
Sure, we were all ready to go home when our 12-hour night was over. That was a natural reaction to the day. But I did not walk out of there thinking what in the hell, or even have the feeling I never wanted to go back.
Life is a mindset. I'm discovering this more and more as I age. This weekend proved that theory to me in a multitude of ways. I'm grateful for the coworkers I have. They are good hard-working people in my opinion.
This job has taught me so much about myself since I started there. I knew I was going there for a reason, but the reasons for me being there have only increased over my time there.
I feel at peace in my soul. Something that I have searched for in many aspects of life. It is like things in the entirety of my life are finally just falling into place. I can enjoy a life outside of the workplace without always wondering what is going to happen next in the workplace. I can walk through my sister's woods enjoying all of its beauty without needing to be there to get my soul right and escape from the pressures of this world.
I've accomplished so much around my house that I've wanted to do for so many years. Strange how that works when you take so much unwanted stress away.
I've renewed my desire to work on writing again. I renewed my desires to be human again. I've let down my guard again in so many aspects in life because I feel like I now understand where my trust is in this world and where it is not. I don't tell my instincts their crazy now, LOL, and just listen to them. I'm diving into this next phase in life with both feet, embracing the knowledge that life is always about learning, and seeking out what it is trying to teach me.
Every day I wake up I live for the moment. Whatever the day brings I feel the emotions and let them wash through me. I release what's not good for me and hold onto only what needs to linger.
Life is a learning process...why not treat it as such...
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!
Today I am blogging from one of my favorite places, my back porch :) I love springtime out here surrounded by the outdoors and all the spring scents, flowers, freshly cut lawns, and yes, campfires :)
This weekend I had my first really tough night of work since I started there seven months ago. We came into a mess, mass confusion, and normally, we just push through, get done what needs done, and that's the end of things. Well, it didn't work the normal way and one thing I know about myself is when things don't work right my anxiety levels push upward.
It sometimes gets so bad it puts me in a horrible mood. However, strangely that did not happen the other night. Mind you, even my coworkers felt this anxiety. In fact, toward the end of the night we joked about it. See, we took turns with the anxious part of the night. We problem solved together, we helped each other push through when one of us felt anxious, and we kicked ass.
Yesterday, I reflected on all of this and realized life has once again taught me something important.
It's okay to feel overwhelmed and anxious. It's okay to not know how you are going to fix things at first. What's not okay is allowing yourself to unpack and live there. Had all of us decided the night was completely lost and given up we would have never been able to do all we did. Instead, we supported one another (our personalities are very similar, we both like to
find the positive even in bad situations), we worked as a team, and we made the night a success.
I think that was the very first time I started out on high anxiety and was able to end a day with a sense of good accomplishment.
Sure, we were all ready to go home when our 12-hour night was over. That was a natural reaction to the day. But I did not walk out of there thinking what in the hell, or even have the feeling I never wanted to go back.
Life is a mindset. I'm discovering this more and more as I age. This weekend proved that theory to me in a multitude of ways. I'm grateful for the coworkers I have. They are good hard-working people in my opinion.
This job has taught me so much about myself since I started there. I knew I was going there for a reason, but the reasons for me being there have only increased over my time there.
I feel at peace in my soul. Something that I have searched for in many aspects of life. It is like things in the entirety of my life are finally just falling into place. I can enjoy a life outside of the workplace without always wondering what is going to happen next in the workplace. I can walk through my sister's woods enjoying all of its beauty without needing to be there to get my soul right and escape from the pressures of this world.
I've accomplished so much around my house that I've wanted to do for so many years. Strange how that works when you take so much unwanted stress away.
I've renewed my desire to work on writing again. I renewed my desires to be human again. I've let down my guard again in so many aspects in life because I feel like I now understand where my trust is in this world and where it is not. I don't tell my instincts their crazy now, LOL, and just listen to them. I'm diving into this next phase in life with both feet, embracing the knowledge that life is always about learning, and seeking out what it is trying to teach me.
Every day I wake up I live for the moment. Whatever the day brings I feel the emotions and let them wash through me. I release what's not good for me and hold onto only what needs to linger.
Life is a learning process...why not treat it as such...
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!