Good morning, everyone!!!
It's been a busy few days around here. Between moving the youngest and reorganizing this house (something I always seem to do when a kid moves out), work, and still managing a bit of gardening. Things seem to be wrapping up there just a bit, so not as much as it once was.
I spent my day off yesterday doing a little housework, making oat flour and rice flour, and hanging out with the youngest grandchild. Now the rest of the week it is early early shifts and figuring out what is most important on my list of things to do.
I've had lots of thinking time over the course of the last week. I definitely needed that due to the fact that things around here are once again changing. Excitement for the youngest who has ventured out on his own. Excitement and nervousness that suddenly I have now completed a phase in this life.
Strange how that works out. As a young mom you see the chaos, the day to day insanity. You think you will go crazy if you hear the word, 'mom', one more time. Then as your children become teenagers and take on an entire different personality (like some alien from another planet sort of personality) you wonder if you will survive until their adulthood. Then the day comes when they are grown, men and women. That time you pray for when their little and driving you nuts.
As I stood and watched the two boys I raised, my memory seeing them as the little people they once were. Only to change to the vision before me at that moment, two grown men working together, side by side, and I smile. My job is done as a mom. Now the relationship shifts to something new.
Where do you go from here? Well, it's been years since I've had to raise these young people. But your mind tells you, you're still in that mode as long as even just one remains at home. But when that last one leaves the nest, you feel that completion of a phase in life. You reserve to the fact you're job is done in that area.
I'm not sad, don't get me wrong. Yes, I did have a few tears, but that's normal. A phase in life has just ended. But, there is excitement too. Excitement knowing there is a new phase beginning.
I'm surrounded with my feathered and furry friends. A husband who is home every couple of weeks. A life I've been working toward for many years now. So, the excitement of walking through the door of a new phase is now upon me.
Sure, I have to retrain myself to cook less portions. To shop for less. Those messes that used to drive me crazy... you know the ones, where you clean something only to turn around and find it piled up again, well, that is now put in the memory file.
Moving forward. It's always scary, but always exciting too. I don't believe in sulking, so there's only one thing to do, move forward. Today after work I shop for the first time for mainly one. Well, with the exception I need to pick up dog food :) and hubby should be home for at least one meal this week :) But mainly, I will be shopping for me. That is a strange feeling and I think it will be the biggest adjustment for me.
To go to the store and think, "Hmmm, what do I want."
I have some new and exciting ideas for my birds and their environment which I plan to put into action this week. I have some new and exciting ideas for my living environment as well. Hubby and I will soon be looking at new countertops (yep, it doesn't take much to excite me, LOL).
I'm embracing this new phase. Finding pleasure in it. Because after all, my children deserve to live their lives, not fret and worry over their mom. Because mom will be fine. Mom has done her job as a mother, and now those relationships are different but rewarding. I can look back on the times they were little and smile, but I can look to the now and smile even bigger because they are where they are supposed to be at this moment in time. I can look to the future and know they will be okay.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!
It's been a busy few days around here. Between moving the youngest and reorganizing this house (something I always seem to do when a kid moves out), work, and still managing a bit of gardening. Things seem to be wrapping up there just a bit, so not as much as it once was.
I spent my day off yesterday doing a little housework, making oat flour and rice flour, and hanging out with the youngest grandchild. Now the rest of the week it is early early shifts and figuring out what is most important on my list of things to do.
I've had lots of thinking time over the course of the last week. I definitely needed that due to the fact that things around here are once again changing. Excitement for the youngest who has ventured out on his own. Excitement and nervousness that suddenly I have now completed a phase in this life.
Strange how that works out. As a young mom you see the chaos, the day to day insanity. You think you will go crazy if you hear the word, 'mom', one more time. Then as your children become teenagers and take on an entire different personality (like some alien from another planet sort of personality) you wonder if you will survive until their adulthood. Then the day comes when they are grown, men and women. That time you pray for when their little and driving you nuts.
As I stood and watched the two boys I raised, my memory seeing them as the little people they once were. Only to change to the vision before me at that moment, two grown men working together, side by side, and I smile. My job is done as a mom. Now the relationship shifts to something new.
Where do you go from here? Well, it's been years since I've had to raise these young people. But your mind tells you, you're still in that mode as long as even just one remains at home. But when that last one leaves the nest, you feel that completion of a phase in life. You reserve to the fact you're job is done in that area.
I'm not sad, don't get me wrong. Yes, I did have a few tears, but that's normal. A phase in life has just ended. But, there is excitement too. Excitement knowing there is a new phase beginning.
I'm surrounded with my feathered and furry friends. A husband who is home every couple of weeks. A life I've been working toward for many years now. So, the excitement of walking through the door of a new phase is now upon me.
Sure, I have to retrain myself to cook less portions. To shop for less. Those messes that used to drive me crazy... you know the ones, where you clean something only to turn around and find it piled up again, well, that is now put in the memory file.
Moving forward. It's always scary, but always exciting too. I don't believe in sulking, so there's only one thing to do, move forward. Today after work I shop for the first time for mainly one. Well, with the exception I need to pick up dog food :) and hubby should be home for at least one meal this week :) But mainly, I will be shopping for me. That is a strange feeling and I think it will be the biggest adjustment for me.
To go to the store and think, "Hmmm, what do I want."
I have some new and exciting ideas for my birds and their environment which I plan to put into action this week. I have some new and exciting ideas for my living environment as well. Hubby and I will soon be looking at new countertops (yep, it doesn't take much to excite me, LOL).
I'm embracing this new phase. Finding pleasure in it. Because after all, my children deserve to live their lives, not fret and worry over their mom. Because mom will be fine. Mom has done her job as a mother, and now those relationships are different but rewarding. I can look back on the times they were little and smile, but I can look to the now and smile even bigger because they are where they are supposed to be at this moment in time. I can look to the future and know they will be okay.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!