Well a different sort of blog came over me yesterday after I blogged. I had full intentions of blogging on the topic of Aids and how it was different from the myths of our yesterdays. Then it hit me, why are you falling trap to the drama that someone else is trying to bring to you?
So, instead, I thought about, what is the motive of someone trying to bring this to your doorstep? Why now? Why after years of so many other things going on and happening in and around my life, why this, why now? It made no sense to me. Sure Aids is a scary topic, but we've learned so much over the course of the years about the truths that surround this illness that really it isn't as scary as it once was.
What about all the time mental and physical abuse was happening? Where were these 'concerned' people then? When my daughter looked like she was already in the grave from being subjected to this behavior for so long. Why suddenly out of nowhere does 'concerned' citizens decide to try to start drama where drama doesn't need to be started.
So after some thought and some consideration, I asked myself, "What is the end game here?" It's surely not out of friendship, because I gave plenty of time for the friendship aspect of this relationship to present itself. Two years worth. Nothing. So why now? To start drama, is all I can come up with.
I do my best to live in a drama free zone. I keep to myself most of the time. I'm learning important lessons on how to react to situations I have no control over.
So after some careful consideration over this situation, I sent the text to my daughter I received and let it go. It is her battle not mine. Sure, I could have just kept the text, deleted the text, or even just ignored it. But sometimes you have to protect yourself. Especially with people who would try to put words into your mouth. So hence the reason I sent the text. I'm not in this. This is not my situation.
I do my best NOT to live my children's lives. They are adults. They make their own choices and decisions. I am just their mom. I step in when they need me to, such as the very violent situation in my daughter's recent past. I try to help heal the wounds and try to be there for them. However, they live their lives and it is my job as their mom to just support them in any decision they make, whether or not I like it, that is of little concern.
Mothers need to learn to let go sometimes. This has always been the hardest aspect of my children growing up. Letting go. We're not needed as much as we once were and that is okay. We finally have received that freedom we've always longed for after a hard day of parenting. However, most times we don't know what to do with this freedom, LOL.
This is where my writing has been helpful. I fill my days living for me and what I want to do. I fill my days going after my dreams. A busy mind is very helpful in minding your own business.
Sure I vent things out. Who doesn't. But when it all boils away, the reality is the only things I control are myself and my reactions.
So to the people out there who wish to stick their nose into other people's business. Ask yourself, why are you doing this? Don't say it is because you are concerned or care after so long. Because that doesn't fly. If you are avoiding something in your own life that needs attention, maybe pay closer attention to that. If you are just trying to see if you can still cause trouble, well, sorry, this drama free zone isn't playing that game any longer. Don't expect me to buy into the 'concern' or bullshit.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!