Well it's my first night of third shift and I tortured myself all day about sleep. Funny thing to torture oneself over considering I should have thought this thing through better.
In the past I've worked what I have fondly referred to as 'fifth' shift for many years. What I did not take into consideration when I tortured myself trying to sleep on and off today was, I'm good to go with staying up all night for a job without mixing up my sleep pattern.
How often in the past have I written to well into the night, gotten up at a decent hour the next morning, and then carried on the day and back at it until the wee hours of the night???
Then there was my cleaning job. I worked until the wee hours of the night many a time on that one and a good deal of the time put in twelve and sixteen hours doing that in a night.
So what was the big fuss today??? Because in my mind I thought I needed to sleep this day away instead of just treating it like any other day. I will make a mental note of this for tomorrow :) It's not like this is going to be a regular thing, so why did I spend the day sweating it??? Because I allowed myself too, that's why.
Funny the things you think about after the fact.
I'm actually looking forward to it. I haven't done this shift at my current job and figured why not? To make an effective assistant manager one needs to know what happens on all shifts not just the ones you're used to. My father-in-law once told me management should always know the jobs they expect of others. He was absolutely right. One should not be afraid to get their hands dirty and be able to pick up the job if necessary. This has stuck with me for many years now.
So, I guess lesson learned here. Treat this like any other day. I know its a bit too late currently, seeing as I wasted this whole day obsessing over sleep, when I should have just went on with life. I will make it through this shift and tomorrow's shift without issue I'm sure. I've done it before on many occasions with other jobs :)
I had a few instances this week where I was given trials on my go with the flow attitude. I did find myself obsessing over it for a moment, then I reminded myself, let it flow. What is bad is this letting it flow thing is also creating some crazy dreams which is waking me up in the night thinking where in the hell did that come from??? Sometimes, it makes me not want to go back to sleep and other times it makes me pray sleep will return. See what happens when you let your subconscious flow without restraint???
Oh well, I'm still anxious to see where this takes me. I know it is truly helping the creativity within me. It's been a long time since I felt this writing energetic :)
Well I guess I should hit the shower and prepare for the night ahead :)
Everyone have a lovely night!!!
Blessings to all!!!