I know it is hard to believe me being quiet. Ms. Opinionated. But, quiet I've been. I started something new this year, full moon meditation baths to help focus my thoughts and energy in the right direction.
Needless to say it has not helped in the acquaintance department, in fact I've lost a few acquaintances in this process. But that is part of this process this year. The object is to help clear away clutter from my life in many forms, not just things, but people who drag me down as well. Whether this emotional toll is via Facebook posts, things in my life, or yes, people in my life.
By emotional toll I mean things which drag me down emotionally for long periods of time. I don't have time for emotional baggage anymore.
I first began this in January. Right after the first meditation I found myself refreshed, but I also found myself sick. It is part of the process. I managed to see direction and also wrote notes after the meditation to help clear my vision. When I came down with a horrible head cold for the first time in a long time, I knew this was part of the process. You can't move forward if you are still holding within you the pieces of life before. So, you get sick, you push out of your system the negative forces that have held you back.
This week's full moon meditation brought about even more revelations, with a few lingering things pushing themselves forward right before the full moon.
I felt so energized yet so lethargic after this meditation. The lethargic was the final blows of the last month. The release so to speak. I awoke this morning refreshed and ready for this next phase. Ready to take on the next steps in this adventure.
Spring cleaning this year will be different than the years before. This year it will be an entire house. My emotional/spiritual one as well as this entire four bedroom house. No nook or granny will go unturned. This has always been helpful in my life. Going through drawers and closets allows me to go through all those locked doors of the emotional/spiritual world as well. I not only assess the items I find, but I assess my inner self as well. Releasing what doesn't work and hold onto what does work for me.
It is the same for people. There are certain people we keep in our lives because everyone else thinks we should. In the writing world especially. We hold onto friendships we think are beneficial to us in this field, but in reality, they are only dragging us down. There are certain authors I thought I had to be associated with just because they were authors. Over the course of the last couple of years, things have really opened my eyes with a few of them. I've seen sides of them that not only made me gasp, but also things I never expected. Attacking other authors just because they believe differently, with nothing to do in the writing realm at all. I believed in these authors until a few years ago.
Needless to say this shook up my emotional world a bit. I have never been one to think highly of someone talking down to others. In fact, I have always prided myself on surrounding myself with people who help, assist, and bring up others. Then to find out my circle (which is never that large anyway) was full of people finding more pleasure in bringing people down versus rising them up, really threw me for a loop.
Hence part of the reason for this year's full moon meditations. I need focus on my own life. I need insight into who I allow inside my inner circle even in the acquaintance world. It makes me question a lot of things that require a lot of guidance from the inner realm.
I do not hate these people by any means. In fact, I pray for their success, I pray they can set aside their angers and hate, which I know eats away at a person from the inside out. I also seek out within myself patience, understanding, and lastly, release from any bindings that brought me full circle to this aspect of my life. I want to be able to pray for acceptance rather than lining my soul with anger and hate. That is my goal for this year. To be able to face things that anger me or bring about negative emotions with a new outlook. Be able to change these moments quickly into moments of grace and positivity, before the rage and negative take over and drag me down.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!