Good evening, everyone!!!
Well, the edits are finally done. In just a few short days I am hopeful in having Into the Darkness back up and out there.
I'd like to be started on another editing project by this time next week, which means Into the Darkness needs to be uploaded and done by then.
I'm not sure if I'm going to get back to Darkness Brings Desire or Passionate Pursuit next week, but the way I have it figured I will mull over that decision during my 12-hour shifts over the weekend :)
It has felt really amazing being back in the writing saddle once again. For so long I just could not make myself sit down and work like this again.
Then I started going to the gym, then finding the Total Body Enhancement that includes red light therapy and things just started falling into place. So much of the stress of the last few years just fell away. Between my old job aggravations and the covid ordeal, I guess my stress levels were just too high to focus.
Then as you know a month or so ago, I got a gym membership and told myself I would do this. I needed to reclaim my mental health. I'm just tired of things stealing that from me. And worse yet, I'm tired of myself allowing it. I needed to reclaim myself and being a writer was part of that.
I knew if I just sat down and started, I could get that feeling back. But it had been so long since I let myself just enjoy the process of creating a storyline, or even a story. I had all but forgotten how to go about it.
Changing jobs was a huge benefit to starting the process. Spending time in nature another wonderful stress reliever. The gym membership, well, that was icing on the cake. It allowed me the time to just refocus and revamp my inner self. Something I realize now was a must.
I cannot express this enough...
If you find yourself drowning whether it be in a job, an emotion, a situation in life, whatever it might be, find a way out. You can't hurry things, but you can find a starting point.
For me the starting point was finding relief in nature. My sister and I would lose ourselves in the woods, picking berries, searching out plants and their uses. Anything that got us outdoors and helped us leave the world around us for a few hours. We were each other's therapists so to speak.
Then, changing jobs. Understanding that no matter what job you work at you're just a number and can be replaced in a moment's notice if necessary. So, finding a job that suited me for my needs was highly important. Because if I need to work at a job, I need one that is not going to add to my stress, but allow me to come in, do my job, then walk out those doors when the shift is over and not have to worry if they will call me in five minutes. It was also important to me to find a job that I could work not just to pay the bills, but one where I could save up, have something left over at the end of the week and not stress if I would have enough to even pay the bills at the end of the week.
So, you see the job change was a huge factor in helping to relieve stress. I like having a job that my only responsibilities are making it to work, doing my job to the best of my ability, and at the end of the day, I walk away knowing I'm paid a decent wage to do my job and that's all. Not being expected to ensure the other people are doing their jobs, or even being conned into doing someone else's job so they don't have to learn new things coming at them, under the bullshit belief that you were working toward something more.
Don't stay someplace where your stress levels rise up just thinking about having to go. I may work 12 hour shifts these days, but I can honestly say I don't have the anxiety I had with my 8 hour a day job. I really don't even mind the hour drive there and back, LOL.
So, all in all, dig deep within yourself to figure out what the core to that stress is. What is stopping you from moving forward in your life? What is keeping you from your happy place? Can you change any part of it? Can you change all of it? If so, do so. If not, then ask yourself how can I be happy where I am today? What can I do to help me change up my life? Then seek that out.
I knew for me, my happy place within my soul is when I have time to spend each day at the keyboard. The rest of my life falls into place when I have my writing time. I knew I needed to get back to myself, and to do that I had to get back to the keyboard.
The last few weeks I have felt more like me than I have in a few years. For this I am grateful.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!
Well, the edits are finally done. In just a few short days I am hopeful in having Into the Darkness back up and out there.
I'd like to be started on another editing project by this time next week, which means Into the Darkness needs to be uploaded and done by then.
I'm not sure if I'm going to get back to Darkness Brings Desire or Passionate Pursuit next week, but the way I have it figured I will mull over that decision during my 12-hour shifts over the weekend :)
It has felt really amazing being back in the writing saddle once again. For so long I just could not make myself sit down and work like this again.
Then I started going to the gym, then finding the Total Body Enhancement that includes red light therapy and things just started falling into place. So much of the stress of the last few years just fell away. Between my old job aggravations and the covid ordeal, I guess my stress levels were just too high to focus.
Then as you know a month or so ago, I got a gym membership and told myself I would do this. I needed to reclaim my mental health. I'm just tired of things stealing that from me. And worse yet, I'm tired of myself allowing it. I needed to reclaim myself and being a writer was part of that.
I knew if I just sat down and started, I could get that feeling back. But it had been so long since I let myself just enjoy the process of creating a storyline, or even a story. I had all but forgotten how to go about it.
Changing jobs was a huge benefit to starting the process. Spending time in nature another wonderful stress reliever. The gym membership, well, that was icing on the cake. It allowed me the time to just refocus and revamp my inner self. Something I realize now was a must.
I cannot express this enough...
If you find yourself drowning whether it be in a job, an emotion, a situation in life, whatever it might be, find a way out. You can't hurry things, but you can find a starting point.
For me the starting point was finding relief in nature. My sister and I would lose ourselves in the woods, picking berries, searching out plants and their uses. Anything that got us outdoors and helped us leave the world around us for a few hours. We were each other's therapists so to speak.
Then, changing jobs. Understanding that no matter what job you work at you're just a number and can be replaced in a moment's notice if necessary. So, finding a job that suited me for my needs was highly important. Because if I need to work at a job, I need one that is not going to add to my stress, but allow me to come in, do my job, then walk out those doors when the shift is over and not have to worry if they will call me in five minutes. It was also important to me to find a job that I could work not just to pay the bills, but one where I could save up, have something left over at the end of the week and not stress if I would have enough to even pay the bills at the end of the week.
So, you see the job change was a huge factor in helping to relieve stress. I like having a job that my only responsibilities are making it to work, doing my job to the best of my ability, and at the end of the day, I walk away knowing I'm paid a decent wage to do my job and that's all. Not being expected to ensure the other people are doing their jobs, or even being conned into doing someone else's job so they don't have to learn new things coming at them, under the bullshit belief that you were working toward something more.
Don't stay someplace where your stress levels rise up just thinking about having to go. I may work 12 hour shifts these days, but I can honestly say I don't have the anxiety I had with my 8 hour a day job. I really don't even mind the hour drive there and back, LOL.
So, all in all, dig deep within yourself to figure out what the core to that stress is. What is stopping you from moving forward in your life? What is keeping you from your happy place? Can you change any part of it? Can you change all of it? If so, do so. If not, then ask yourself how can I be happy where I am today? What can I do to help me change up my life? Then seek that out.
I knew for me, my happy place within my soul is when I have time to spend each day at the keyboard. The rest of my life falls into place when I have my writing time. I knew I needed to get back to myself, and to do that I had to get back to the keyboard.
The last few weeks I have felt more like me than I have in a few years. For this I am grateful.
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!