Soon torture month will begin for my fellow author friends and I. Where we attempt to push the mark and write 50,000 words in a month.
We go in with a positive attitude. We go in with the utmost confidence that we got this. We go in thinking we have the bull by the horns.
Shortly after it begins, we start feeling like, "What the hell have I got myself into?" Followed up by, "What was I thinking?"
Then about mid month it's all about the doubt. "I can't do this. I don't know why I even attempt this every year."
Then the last week comes in. Depending where we are in our writing and how close we are to the expected word count, we either throw in the towel or push ourselves even harder to make that goal.
Why do we torture ourselves like this? Because we're writers, authors of stories and words, and yeah, probably a bit crazy :)
I will be spending this last few weeks of the month prepping. Making sure the house is in order, maybe even cooking up some meals to just pull out of the freezer to throw in the microwave. Because let's face it between the day job and the writing there will be no time for much of anything else.
We've already spoken with one another to make a game plan for the month. Writing sprints, moral support, prepping to push each other to our fullest abilities. It's what you do :)
I've got two more months of this year to work out some kinks in life. Make some firm decisions on how to proceed into the new year. To assess so many lessons that have come to me this year. Things I would never have dreamed would come to pass. I need to open a new door for the up and coming new year. One less stressful. I need to let go of so many things and open the path for the new to enter my life.
When situations are so close to the heart it is hard to put things in to perspective. But it is something I need to do. So many things have come to pass this year, so many thoughts, emotions, and it is not healthy. So I need to focus on the positive. Maintain a positive outlook. And push the positive mark more.
There have been some pretty positive things that have happened this year. So much learning over the course of the summer and fall. I've learned so much and have found this to be a very positive impact on my life.
The youngest son moving out. Starting to live his own life. I've now got the freedom to worry about very little other than what I want to do. Which feels strange in some ways, seeing as I've always had people to take care of :)
Sure I still have my little zoo to tend to :) But other than that, it's just me most of the time. So now is my time to really push the mark on the things I love and enjoy. It's just wrapping the brain around it all :)
He's thriving now. His tail feathers are coming back in nicely. He's enjoying hanging with his friends. They are always full of themselves LOL. Sunny plays music for me on the glass dish whenever he's asked :) Mr. Gray thinks he's all that and tries to rule the roost. I guess it may be time to get another female to put these guys in their place :)
Well there you have it. Bear with me over the course of the end of this year. I have a ton on my mind and really no solutions to where this will go. But I'm working on it :)
Everyone have a lovely day!!!
Blessings to all!!!